If you are on a path of spirituality and self improvement you might know that you are constantly at war with your weaknesses. You are trying to make new habits, positive changes and your old habits come up again and again trying to fail you on your path of improvement. I just wanted to share my experience.
Recently I have been on my very best mental state. Have been doing Reiki meditation which has proved to be quite helpful with my rajyoga meditation which I do based on Rajyoga philosophy by the Brahmakumaris where you emerge your original values of knowledge, purity, peace, love, happiness, bliss, power. All this has proved quite useful to me and to an extent have helped me to combat my old negative habits of comparison, expectation, jealousy, fear. Basically, from my experiences from both this meditation so far, I have understood that Reiki meditation helps the body and the mind and Rajyoga mediation helps the spirit. Just a disclaimer on both this meditation I have not learnt Reiki, just do it listening to guided meditation on youtube. But I do want to learn it and am searching for a good teacher to teach me. Rajyoga meditation I have learnt from the Brahmakumaris centres which are there almost at every place in the world. I like their philosophy and find it more logical than the other philosophies I have heard so far. With due respect to every religious and spiritual organisation. This being my own personal belief.
I have realized that it is possible to overcome all the other vices of lust, greed, anger, jealousy, attachment but the one vice that attacks you like a spy from the enemy, quietly, and that is ego or arrogance. And once you have been attacked by it, it opens up the door to all other vices too. Practicing meditation has made me very positive and I stay happy all the time enjoying everything in life. Which is always good but, it did made me subtly to think that I am superior to others just because I can enjoy each and every moment in my life and others can't. Weird right. Being egoless and humble should be the first thing you should learn when you are into spirituality, but may be because it would be my old habit, which was deep hidden somewhere in my consciousness. When I was able to overcome all the other vices it secretly attacked me somewhere, I didn't even realize. And I started thinking I know everything I have to know and do not need any of my spiritual advisers, guides, or anyone to help me out. My life is perfect being with myself and all the others whose life is not perfect are stupid enough not to know how to live life. Its such an horrible thought which I am realizing now while writing this thought. Especially when I know I was in their place once and still I think that way. Arrogance attacked me big time, and it opened the way to all the other vices to enter. And the worst part is it blinded me so much and worked behind my back that I didn't even realize what was happening.
I started behaving like before again but the difference was this time, instead of feeling guilty I started feeling whatever I was doing is right. I am in no way blaming any meditation practice. I take the blame myself. I lost against arrogance. It played well to defeat me. But the one thing you should never do is give up. If you fall, get up and fight again. The best part is I finally understood what was happening. Who betrayed me. I confused arrogance with pride. Now its clear. I will take some quiet time and reflect upon how to defeat arrogance. And I will do it now and replace it with compassion, understanding, humility. I am ready to fight again and God is with me. I will succeed. Amen..
Recently I have been on my very best mental state. Have been doing Reiki meditation which has proved to be quite helpful with my rajyoga meditation which I do based on Rajyoga philosophy by the Brahmakumaris where you emerge your original values of knowledge, purity, peace, love, happiness, bliss, power. All this has proved quite useful to me and to an extent have helped me to combat my old negative habits of comparison, expectation, jealousy, fear. Basically, from my experiences from both this meditation so far, I have understood that Reiki meditation helps the body and the mind and Rajyoga mediation helps the spirit. Just a disclaimer on both this meditation I have not learnt Reiki, just do it listening to guided meditation on youtube. But I do want to learn it and am searching for a good teacher to teach me. Rajyoga meditation I have learnt from the Brahmakumaris centres which are there almost at every place in the world. I like their philosophy and find it more logical than the other philosophies I have heard so far. With due respect to every religious and spiritual organisation. This being my own personal belief.
I have realized that it is possible to overcome all the other vices of lust, greed, anger, jealousy, attachment but the one vice that attacks you like a spy from the enemy, quietly, and that is ego or arrogance. And once you have been attacked by it, it opens up the door to all other vices too. Practicing meditation has made me very positive and I stay happy all the time enjoying everything in life. Which is always good but, it did made me subtly to think that I am superior to others just because I can enjoy each and every moment in my life and others can't. Weird right. Being egoless and humble should be the first thing you should learn when you are into spirituality, but may be because it would be my old habit, which was deep hidden somewhere in my consciousness. When I was able to overcome all the other vices it secretly attacked me somewhere, I didn't even realize. And I started thinking I know everything I have to know and do not need any of my spiritual advisers, guides, or anyone to help me out. My life is perfect being with myself and all the others whose life is not perfect are stupid enough not to know how to live life. Its such an horrible thought which I am realizing now while writing this thought. Especially when I know I was in their place once and still I think that way. Arrogance attacked me big time, and it opened the way to all the other vices to enter. And the worst part is it blinded me so much and worked behind my back that I didn't even realize what was happening.
I started behaving like before again but the difference was this time, instead of feeling guilty I started feeling whatever I was doing is right. I am in no way blaming any meditation practice. I take the blame myself. I lost against arrogance. It played well to defeat me. But the one thing you should never do is give up. If you fall, get up and fight again. The best part is I finally understood what was happening. Who betrayed me. I confused arrogance with pride. Now its clear. I will take some quiet time and reflect upon how to defeat arrogance. And I will do it now and replace it with compassion, understanding, humility. I am ready to fight again and God is with me. I will succeed. Amen..
